The Picciones: Any Day Now!!

So, I feel like I have been really slacking on the blog, actually I KNOW I have been a slacker. I haven’t been allowing the people who read it and love to keep up with us, a real in-depth week to week update. I have become quite boring and lazy and that’s not me at all. Sometimes I ask myself, where have I gone? I used to love to write. Poems, short stories, and even just funny emails to friends. Baking was something that I used to do with my eyes closed. Not only because I love sweets and obviously getting fat but my house smelling like a fresh bakery was for me, the best smell a house could have. And to counteract that love for baking, the gym was my second home. Spin classes with Mayra and midnight sessions at 24hour Fitness after a night shift of work, and even 7am runs at the Sea Wall along the beach in Carlsbad with my dear old friend Kate. I was addicted to eating what I wanted, enjoying life with high calorie alcoholic beverages and working it off the next day. I enjoyed life. If you met me now, you wouldn’t recognize me. I have lost myself completely. And how to get back to that place again is beyond me. I don’t even heat up those microwavable brownies, let alone bake something. So, I don’t want to admit this but I thought maybe going to a shrink would help me with my problems. Wrong! The first appointment I told her the normal things, you know, I don’t have any family here nor friends, and the only thing I usually talk to is a 10 month old who tends to slap me in the face and poke out my eyeballs. Seriously. I don’t know what has gotten into my little tyrant but he is getting more and more abusive as the days pass. Well, the first thing she told me was that my little tyrant would start school one day and that would open a lot of doors for me when it came to finding friends. What the heck, that’s like a few years away. Not having friends for a few years just isn’t an option. I have realized that some people are fit to live abroad and some people are fit to just visit. I loved Argentina when I was studying here and going out and living the life. But now that I have settled down and had a family, I have grown really distant from this place I now call home. In fact, It is anything but that. Diego and I are definitely moving home, the states, next year. And now that I know this place is temporary it makes it even harder to try and get comfortable. I know that they say having a baby is life changing, but I think my changes have been much greater than most mothers. Its hard, but luckily I am strong enough to deal with it.

On a more positive note, the large dose of A.D.D that I wake up to every morning at 6am, Benjamin. He is still not walking but he is getting braver every day. He takes one step to a chair or turns around and goes to something else, but no walking yet. I have my camera ready for the moment so don’t worry it should be any day now. He is sleeping much better and plays all by himself so well. He is getting so big and I cant wait for his first birthday. We haven’t decided at all what we are going to do for his birthday but I just want my baby to turn one. He is pointing at everything and really starting to incorporate new letters and sounds into his speech. He has his 4 teeth and I am almost positive that by next week when I write the blog he will have 6. You can see his next two teeth on top already poking through. I guess he is one of those babies who got all their teeth at once. He went from have no teeth at 9 months to 6 by 11 months old. Poor thing, must be in pain but its almost over.

Well, last but not least, Daddy. He is working really close again, 5 minutes away. Sometimes we go and visit him. The people in his office have different opinions about who Benjamin looks like but hands down he is his mommy. Diego has been pretty lazy, I think I am rubbing off on him. He hasn’t been playing soccer that much, only once a week. He hurt his heel 2 weeks ago and still complains about it every day. Maybe one day he will go to the doctor, but for right now just complaints. He is really sad that he cant go to the states with us in August but somebody has to work. At least he is already making a mental note of all the things he wants me to bring back for him. He will get to go though the best time of the year, Christmas and New years! There is just nothing like the American Christmas time, I am sure he will really enjoy it.

Well, I promise that from now on I will enjoy writing the blog, and therefore write more. I know you might not read every time I write but maybe next time I will be funny ;)

Enjoy the Pictures of my Tyrant!!