Happy Father's day to some of the greatest men that I know!!! I am married to one of the best fathers in the whole world. Diego loves Benjamin more than he loves anything, even me. And that's ok because I feel the same way. He plays, talks, feeds, puts to sleep, and provides for Benji in the best way he can and that's all that I can really ask for. When I was little I always imagined that I would marry not the most handsome man in the world, or the richest, but a man who would be an outstanding father. Who would play with his kids. The imagine of a man pushing his child on the swing or catching a ball in the front yard is just the sexiest thing on earth. And thats Diego. The best husband and father!
Well, I want to apologize for not posting last week but I didn't have the internet.I was bummed because you will see that I have many videos of Benji. He is so close to walking and I wanted to share that moment but was unable to do so.
Well, sharing emotions has been this weeks topic for me. My sister-in-law lent me a book that she thought I would enjoy and boy was she right. It's a book written by a psychologist about different patients of his. Obviously he uses other names instead of their own, but real stories. I have always liked psychology and even thought about changing my major once and then realized that I was too religious to not share the word of God when I needed and felt the urge to. So, I went back to the right choice for me, teaching. Well, the book is outstanding because there will be that one patient that you can relate to, if not more. One of the patients generated an anger inside of me. As I was reading his story I couldn't help but get mad and think, Why is he doing this? Is he really saying these things? and then I read another patients story and I think wow maybe I need to really see a psychologist. haha. Little problems that you might think are no big deal can perhaps be greater and more important than what you think are the big problems. So I started to ask myself, does every problem have a root? According to this book, all our decisions, worries, insecurities, etc., come from something that happened to us in the past. We are affected for a reason, and the psychologist's job is to find that root. Although I want to know if everything really does have a root. Why can't I just do something "just cause?" Does everything have to have a reason? I don't think I want it to. Or maybe I don't want to find out. What I have learned is that I am me and I am NOT going to budge, no matter how many times you try to shift my reasoning or compromise my Christianity. One of the best things that has happened to me here in Argentina is that I have lost myself in order to find myself. I said about 3 weeks ago that I had lost myself completely. This was because I am not my normal self, but if you ask me who that person is I can back it up 100%. I know that I am not being that person, but I know every inch of her. I know who I am and why. This is me: I know that punctuality is crucial to me because someone once taught me that early is on time, on time is late, and late is unacceptable. When someone shows up late, for me, its a sign of disrespect. That you don't care enough to show up on time. I know that I believe in God and not because I was raised in a Christian home but because at 12 years old, that's what I chose to believe in and have become more and more satisfied with my choice. I know that I am an extrovert and sometimes talk to much, but I would rather be center of attention than the quiet girl in the corner. I know that I am an addict, here are a few of my addictions: Coffee, the gym, pinterest, kissing my son, baking, reading, and eating healthy. Once I start these things, I cant stop. Luckily They aren't too bad, ok maybe pinterest for 4 hours while drinking 3 cups of coffee. Oopsy, dont think Im jokin' either. haha Well. Just when I thought I was losing myself, I have found myself entirely. I continue to work on that person and won't stop until I am satisfied.
Joshua 1:9
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.
So Happy Father's day again to my Dad, Tony Avila, my Grandpas, Joe Avila and Richard Lusby, My two brothers Beau Avila and Jason Calvert, and my handsome man Diego Piccione. I love you all!! Always remember that you as a father might not know every answer to every question, but when you need anything your Father in heaven is always there.
Enjoy the Photos. God Bless!
(there are 3 videos after the photos)
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